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He had one of those laughs which sounds like an assault when it
comes up unawares behind you on the street, but as he passed her
she found her hatred of the abrasive laugh melting into an
undeniable sense of oneness with the still laughing man and his
fatuous sideburns, so sharply delineated along a 165º angle.
In another moment she grabbed at the air she lived in to keep
her balance as she found herself - right there on the sidewalk
on Wells outside the stucco busts of Second City - melting into
a strange oneness with all those coming and passing. Did they
feel this oneness all the time? No surely not. Had anyone
ever felt it before?
Still she kept melting, struggling to keep her head up and her
lungs open, feeling the danger was real, and she might really
go down under a single, infinite wave into this sudden ocean.
Had it always been there? Could it continue to exist if she
drowned in it?
She wasn't panicking exactly, but she couldn't stop struggling
either, despite the voice inside her which kept counselling:
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